The Pondering Pond

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This blog is where I record a limited depiction of my feelings, family, and faith. My blog was recently under intense scrutiny, and so I feel this disclaimer is necessary. I try to tell my story as openly as I can, but this blog represents a cropped and narrow-viewed version of my story -- like all social media -- it is NOT the full story. Many events happen behind the scenes that are not recorded or written about, due to the sensitive nature of others involved. Life has many layers. Many layers can be shared and many cannot, and this blog is simply a layer of my life that I allow others to view, but it is not an accurate depiction of all the layers of my life.

October 26, 2021

The Pondering Pond

I live by a pond. In my neighborhood there are a few ponds, and multiple beautiful parks. I find that I gravitate to the quieter pond, especially when I need to ponder the things of life.

There is just something about the calm water that is perfectly situated amongst the trees and old homes; it is rejuvenating for me, it is healing. There have been moments where I have been sitting at my pond, and I just want to stay there forever and soak in the beauty of the water, as feelings of gratitude for being in such a magical place wash over me, and fill me with joy beyond this world.

I have been walking a lot lately, I have been trying to breathe in the final flashes of fall before the leaves flee in the face of frost. I also try and get out of the house as we wrap up the final pieces of our insane renovation project. It is getting so close... so close, but so far away! I cannot wait to have a real home again.

We are currently living in the basement during the renovation, which is nice, but much darker than upstairs, because of small windows. We are comfortable living this way, it is really not too bad. I think about how I could be fine living in the small-window darkness, without knowing what exists above me. I am comfortable, it is nice, I am fine. But when I go upstairs into the beautiful light-filled rooms with large windows and gorgeous views, I realize what I am missing, that there is something more, and glorious, that exists right above me. There is something better, something wonderful, with light that seems to illuminate the soul. I sometimes wonder if we do that in life too -- living beneath our spiritual "privileges" of light, and glory, and beauty, and just excepting a lesser light, because life is "fine" and comfortable.

Just something to think about.

So, as I walk through the Autumn colors, my mind wanders, I ponder, I wonder, and I take pictures!

I don't have a lot to say today... probably because I actually have a lot I wish I could say, but can't.

For now, here are some pictures of the beauty that takes my breath away.

Spokane has my heart, especially this time of year.

It has been even more magical this year, and the colors more vibrant.