For Good: A Musical Tribute

Sammi and I went to see Wicked last night. We bought the tickets a long time ago, but I was not sure I was up for it. I had many people insist that I go, so I obeyed. I am really glad I went, it was amazing. I made it through the whole show without tears, until the end, when they sang the song, "For Good." My eyes began to sting -- while burning, wet, emotion rolled down my cheeks. I did my best to control my ugly cry, I managed, but I was really close to losing it completely. It was a little too close to home for me right now.

However, I also loved the song, it stayed with me, and the message is permanently etched in my heart. Today, Sammi and I decided we should sing it, and make a little video tribute for Charles. (The song affected her, the same way it did me.) Singing is good therapy, music can be very healing, especially for those of us in this household.

Here it is… Sammi and I singing, "For Good" in honor of our favorite person in the world. We are all better because of him. He has absolutely changed us all for good.

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For Good Lyrics:

I've heard it said,
That people come into our lives
For a reason
Bringing something we must learn.
And we are lead to those
Who help us most to grow if we let them.
And we help them in return.
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you.

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun,
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood.
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
But because I knew you.
I have been changed for good.

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime.
So, let me say before we part:
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you.
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you'll have rewritten mine
By being my friend.

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a sky bird
In a distant wood.
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
But because I knew you...

Because I knew you...


I have been changed for good.


And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done,
You blamed me for.

But then,
I guess,
We know there's blame to share.

And none of it seems to matter anymore.
Like a comet pulled from orbit
(Like a ship blown from its mooring)
As it passes a sun.
(By a wind off the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by bird)
Halfway through the wood.
(In the wood)
Who can say if I've been changed for the better.
I do believe I have been changed for the better.

And because I knew you...


Because I knew you...


Because I knew you
I have been changed...
For good.

Unchained Melody: Our Song

Unchained Melody has been our song from day one of us being together. The words are a little painful now, but profoundly powerful, too.

I am so grateful to have recorded so many of the things we have done together, and this video will forever be special to me. Look at my beautiful boy… I love Charles.

I want you to know that he lives, and he is still with me, and he always will be. We have that kind of love.

God speed your love to me, my Charles.

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time

And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me

Lonely rivers flow
To the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea

Lonely rivers sigh
"Wait for me, wait for me"
I'll be coming home, wait for me

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered, hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time

And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me

I Still Want You More, Charles.

I came across this video of a song I wrote for Charles years ago… it is so much more meaningful now. I have known true love. He is still with me, he did not leave me alone.

I have so much to say, that cannot be said now. I will say it all later. One of the most comforting things to me at this time (beside the love of friends and family) is my blog. I recorded everything. If you do not record your life in some way, start now. I mean, like, right now. Record it all…you will be grateful.

Charles is, and ever will be, my beautiful boy. I still want you more, my love.



P.S. My heart is full of gratitude beyond measure for the outpouring of love and support. I am not alone. I am overwhelmed with love. I have seen the hands of Jesus reaching out to me through the kindness of others. The Savior has held me close -- through the arms of my father and mother -- as I have had moments of uncontrollable crying.

God lives everyone. He does. I have seen too much to ever deny it.

I have brought new life into the world, and I have seen my favorite life go onto the next world.

The veil to Heaven is thin for me now.

God lives. I promise.

Hallelujah

There are no words. This is all I have to offer for now…God lives. I know it.

An old video, but it felt appropriate...

Together Forever…