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This blog is where I record a limited depiction of my feelings, family, and faith. My blog was recently under intense scrutiny, and so I feel this disclaimer is necessary. I try to tell my story as openly as I can, but this blog represents a cropped and narrow-viewed version of my story -- like all social media -- it is NOT the full story. Many events happen behind the scenes that are not recorded or written about, due to the sensitive nature of others involved. Life has many layers. Many layers can be shared and many cannot, and this blog is simply a layer of my life that I allow others to view, but it is not an accurate depiction of all the layers of my life.

Overcoming Fear of Failure



There was time, a few years ago, when my life was full of music. I was teaching myself to play the piano, and I was even teaching one of my young women from church voice lessons, in exchange for babysitting. I even played and sang a song I wrote, for one of my lovely young women at her graduation from Laurels. (I still can't believe I did that!) Music was just part of life. People would ask me to sing, and I would do it. I wanted to do it. I would write songs for skits and perform them, and sing at Christmas Ward parties. It seems so strange and foreign now, since music has been so far from me for awhile. But it is hard to sing when you don't feel like singing. And I haven't. Not really. 

But I am changing that. As I reclaim my health, I can feel me -- the me that feels good and is happy -- coming to the surface again. And I am so glad. I thought I would be trapped in my prison of pain forever. But I am starting to see the light of health and vigor at the end of the tunnel. 

I will get there. I can feel it! 

I just came across this video of a song I wrote a few years back. I wrote it when we were going through a crazy time. I thought it was interesting that my old self wrote a song that would inspire my new self to carry on without fear. :-) 

Replace fear with faith and move forward. 

Take the Step of Faith.

It means something different to me now than it did then. But it just goes to show you we are always fighting the battle of faith in some form. Just keep moving forward, and don't let the fear of failing get in your way! 

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