Trusting Him To Guide Me

The word I chose for this year is trust. I was originally going to go with the word "emerge," because I thought I might like to come forth; like a butterfly out of a cocoon. I wanted to leave my shell of grief and sorrow behind and fly. As I considered my word choice more, I realized I am already that butterfly emerged from the cocoon. I have wings, and I have the capacity to fly. I stand on the edge of my cocoon searching, ever watchful for directions, and tapping into my "radar" so that I can know which way I should venture out into the world.

I am a little nervous perched up so high, I am not eager to leave the safety and comforts I have known. I am not afraid of falling, I am afraid of flying. But I know I must spread my wings; I know I must take that leap of faith in order to fly. 

Having already emerged, now I find I need to trust my Heavenly Father to guide me, to lead me where He would have me go, and do what He would have me do. Sometimes that is easier said than done, as sometimes my ways are not perfectly aligned with His ways; as they should be. 

I have found that great power and comfort comes from studying the scriptures. The more I cleave to God and the things He has provided for me to remain close to Him, the more in tune I feel to His whisperings, promptings, and instruction for my life. Sometimes my balances can be off, and I pay tribute to worldly things more than spiritual things, and I find myself more confused, and my ears are less quick to hear Heavenly counsel. I never stop doing the good things daily -- prayer, scripture study, service, etc. -- but sometimes my efforts are less than diligent, and I know the difference diligent efforts can make. 

The difference is falling, or flying. 

I find as I take time to ponder quietly, and study the things of Heaven, my mind is made clear, and my path and future feels full of hope. I have great hope for things to come. Sure the world is slowly spiraling into utter chaos, but we have been promised that: "our future is as bright as our faith." That faith that will light the path for future events comes from putting complete and ultimate trust in a loving Heavenly Father, who knows us personally, and wants us to be happy. The word "bright" refers to The Light of Christ, and it is through Him that all good things are made possible.

I rely on His light, for my light. Without Jesus, I am simple nothing. But with Him my capacity is endless, and my potential is unlimited. The closer I am to the Source of Light, the more Heavenly power I feel in my life. In this time of confusion and darkness, the only way to make it back to our Heavenly home is by cleaving, unfailingly, to the Light. 

Henry B. Eyring said:  

You show your trust in Him when you listen with the intent to learn and repent and then you go and do whatever He asks. If you trust God enough to listen for His message in every sermon, song, and prayer... you will find it. And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed with gratitude to find that He has come to trust you.

I am doing my best to trust God, and listen for His messages of guidance and counsel. Once I know which direction to take, I might just be brave enough to take that leap of faith and fly.