Clair de Lune and A Whole New World
After he passed away, I knew I had to find a way to have the song played during his life-celebration. A friend from our ward, David Nielson, was able to play the most beautiful rendition of the song, on the piano. It was very powerful, and made my heart stir with deep emotion. I sat in awe, as Charles' song that he often requested for his funeral, was brought to fruition right before my eyes. There are no words to express the feelings of that moment.
As time passes, I find I do not think of Charles every moment of the day. I am actually grateful for this, it is too hard to always have him on my mind. He is always in my heart, but when he occupies my mind, it is very hard to stay focused on normal life. But every now-and-then, I will stop and purposefully bring him close to me by thinking of him intensely.
Yesterday, I was sitting in my living room, while daydreaming of my Charles, when the song Clair de Lune began playing on my Pandora station. It was no coincidence. I felt him so close to me as I listened to the beautiful music, and I sat in deep reflection. My heart began to swell with such warmth that tears burst forth from my eyes, and I found myself drenched in memories and longing.
And then I could hear another song coming from the playroom.
Henry was watching Aladdin, and I could hear the song A Whole New World coming from the TV. The songs, Clair de Lune (which means "moonlight"), and A Whole New World (about flying and discovering a new world), swirled around each other in my head. Through the combination of the music, it seemed I was being shown a brief glimpse of hope -- a sweet vision of things to come.
I could see in my mind's eye, Charles standing there with his arm outstretched, offering his hand, waiting to teach me how to fly. (Picture when Aladdin reaches out to Jasmine and says, "Do you trust me?") I could see on his face that he was so excited to show me all of the shining, shimmering, and splendid things of the "whole new world" he has been experiencing. I could tell he was dying (pun intended) to show me all of the new and unbelievable sights, and indescribable feelings that he has discovered in the last few years, while dwelling in such a beautiful place. It was a heavenly sight to see him so happy. It was even more heavenly to be with him again... if only in my daydreams.
Right now, I may only have such visions and dreams to cling to, when it comes to Charles and our future adventures together. But, one day, Charles and I will be together again, and he will be able to show me the whole new world that he is longing to share with me. What great adventures we have in store! Oh, what an incredible journey that awaits!
Just imagine me and Charles singing this song together...
"A Whole New World"
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us "No"
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But now from way up here
It's crystal clear
that now I'm in a whole new world with you
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment gets better
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you
A whole new world
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me
LOVE it.
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Love this!
ReplyDeleteThanks Mari. That was lovely. Tears again, thanks for that too! You are special!!
ReplyDeleteMy dad died 6 weeks ago. He had ALS and had fallen and taken a turn for the worse, but I had talked to my mom on the phone on a Friday afternoon and she said that she thought he still had weeks if not months left. Later that evening I was overcome with such a happy and joyous feeling that I just sat there and could not stop smiling. I believe that I was feeling the feelings of my mother who died 44 years ago. I felt such anticipation, the wait was finally over for her and she was coming to get her sweetheart. Early the next morning I found out that my dad had died about 6 hours after I had those feelings. I did not feel a bit surprised to hear that he had died even though nothing seemed imminent the day before. It was a special experience to feel her joy. I am sure that they are having a wonderful time together. Your post reminded me of this.
ReplyDeleteI had to turn on Clair de Lune in the background while reading. What a beautiful experience. I truly believe Charles is aware of you everyday and is guiding you to your next adventure.
ReplyDeleteI had to turn on Clair de Lune in the background while reading. What a beautiful experience. I truly believe Charles is aware of you everyday and is guiding you to your next adventure.
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