A Birthday Post For Charles

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January 04, 2016

A Birthday Post For Charles

I found this Blog post I wrote in January 2007. I thought I would share it today, on his birthday, to show how I have always been so in love with him. I just adore him so much. He would have been 39 today. Instead of celebrating his mortal age, he gets to party down immortal style. I am sure he is having a good time. I can almost hear him laughing his famous laugh.

January 2007

I want to show some pictures of Charles and express how much I love him!

I have come to be amazed by him and who he is. He has overcome a less than ideal past (to say the least), and has changed his life in every way possible. He has surpassed any expectations I may have had and has astonished me in his ability to overcome any obstacles he has faced. I have never met anyone like him. He is unique and I love him for it. I am so grateful I found him out of the billions of people in the world. I feel such love for him that cannot be expressed in words. I have so loved being married to someone who joined the church later in life. It has added such a great perspective on life that I do not think I would have found without him. He is my favorite person, I would choose his love, his company, over anyone in the world. I love to be with him. My favorite sound is when I hear his blue rusty truck pull up in the parking lot, because it means, he is home! How I live for the moments we are together. How I love him!

I have known him now for 8 years! Before that our paths had crossed numerous times while living in Alaska. We were both at the same youth conference. He used to live just down the street from our house. Best of all, when he first walked into our home in Alaska he said, "Wow, it feels so good here, very familiar." After a while we found out he was babysat by the people who used to live in our home before we did -- weird!

Anyway, when I met Charles he was actually dating someone else. We sat in the same Institute room for a whole semester and never noticed each other. Looking back now, that seems so weird. There were only about 10 other people in the class! One day at the end of the semester we both were assigned to teach our lessons on the same day. Long story short, we noticed each other, and from there we started dating, then the rest is history!

I never knew I could love someone as much as I love Charles. I get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about him. I have always felt that way about him. My Mom told me, "He is not the one." I always tried to listen to my mama, but in this case I knew he was "the one." I think she may feel differently about Charles now. I have always known he was "the one." I could see in his eyes what I wanted to see for forever. When I saw the picture up above of him as a young man, I said to myself, "I want his children!" I thought that was the best looking boy I had ever seen! I still do. I have not been disappointed in my wish either. His children are as beautiful as I hoped they would be.

I know this all sounds sappy and mushy -- that is how I feel about Charles. It is amazing how love can grow over time. From uncertainty to stability. From young love, to the love of family and children. I plan to increase this love with each passing day, year, eternity, forever and ever!!

I LOVE CHARLES!!!