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This blog is where I record a limited depiction of my feelings, family, and faith. My blog was recently under intense scrutiny, and so I feel this disclaimer is necessary. I try to tell my story as openly as I can, but this blog represents a cropped and narrow-viewed version of my story -- like all social media -- it is NOT the full story. Many events happen behind the scenes that are not recorded or written about, due to the sensitive nature of others involved. Life has many layers. Many layers can be shared and many cannot, and this blog is simply a layer of my life that I allow others to view, but it is not an accurate depiction of all the layers of my life.

Hallelujah: One Year Later

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Charles died one year ago today. Of course I have a lot of feelings on this day, but not the words to adequately describe my emotions in written form. The first thing I posted on my blog after his death was a video I made titled: Hallelujah. It was an old video I created to celebrate graduating law school. It was the only thing I could find to post that had music and pictures, that seemed to fit my feelings at the time.

All I could say then was, "Hallelujah." 

So, to celebrate this day, I decided to remake the video to apply to life now; one year after Charles' death. Singing is the best way for me to release my emotions. It was hard to record the song, I cried many times and would have to start over. But I made it through eventually, and got the words I wrote out.

I just love Charles so much, it hurts. I hope you can feel how much I love him.

Love is powerful. It never dies.

This year has been full of soaring highs, and desperate lows.

One year later, I am still singing, "Hallelujah."

Comments

  1. Beautiful Mari. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing. You are amazing and you are my hero.

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  2. Beautiful, Mari... Speechless.

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  3. That song was beautiful Mari! Man, we really miss that guy. Most days I think about it in a distant sort of way with not much emotion attached. But watching that video I let myself feel as the tears ran down my cheeks. You two have a special, eternal relationship and are an example to all of us. We love Charles and we love you and the kids too!

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  4. Thank you for sharing. I have been following your journey for this last year and am grateful for your strength and testimony. You have a beautiful family and I hope the best for all of you. That video and song is a beautiful tribute to Charles.
    Cami

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  5. Thinking of you today! What a beautiful song you wrote! I loved watching the pictures of you two! What an amazing couple!
    With Love,
    Crystal

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  6. You sounded like an angel. So beautiful. What a tribute to your eternal love.

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  7. loved it...and you sounded awesome. :)

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  8. You are beautiful Mari and your voice is stunning. My heart is breaking for you. You've done so well living through this trial. The hardest year is over, I hope for lots of happiness in your future!
    Joy

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  9. Wow! What a beautiful tribute to your husband. Thank you for sharing it with us!

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