My New Shirt

I made myself a few shirts. This one is my favorite. It was our Trek family motto. (Click: HERE.) I just wanted something to wear that made me feel uplifted and powerful. My other shirt says, "KEEP CALM AND STAY STRONG."

I have been adorned with all sorts of things to wear to remind me to be happy, and strong. Normally, I am pretty much jewelry-free -- but now I have been decorated. My wedding ring fits as of the day after Charles passed. I also wear his ring on my thumb. I had friends make me beautiful necklaces, with wonderful messages. And my sister got me a trek bracelet. I was not into having things on my hands, or arms, or around my neck -- but now it feels great to have the constant reminders. I especially love wearing Charles' wedding ring. I've got to find a place to have it engraved…???

I want you to know that I have the Courage to Continue. There may be times in the future when I will need to "find" my courage, but for now -- I HAVE it. Thanks be to God for that! Do you know why I have the Courage to Continue? Because, Charles is the love of my life, and it is difficult not having physical access to him -- but it is not Charles in whom my faith is anchored. My faith is firmly anchored in my Heavenly Father, and Jesus Christ. Charles is gone from this world, but my faith in God is the same. (If not stronger!) 

I am still me, and my devotion to God is first and foremost in my life. I love Charles more than any other -- except for Heavenly Father and Jesus. And it is that Ultimate Love -- The Love of God -- that is burning in my heart now. My heart is so full of the Love of God, that there is no room in my heart to dwell in pity and sadness.

My heart is more full and happy than it has ever been, actually. Is this not supposed to be my darkest hour? As I draw myself close to God, I am overwhelmed with light and love! I have had my crying in the night moments, but I also want to cry to the world how glorious and wonderful Heavenly Father is! He gave me Charles in the first place -- without God, Charles would not be mine. Because of God, Charles is mine forever. Charles' first devotion was to Heavenly Father and Jesus, and then to me, and our family. And that is the way it is supposed to be. I know he is doing the Lord's work now. He always wanted to serve another mission more than anything -- and now he is. I am so happy for Charles, I know Charles is so very happy. I love it when Charles is happy.

If you are having hard times, and struggling with pain and sorrow -- then draw yourself closer to God, and He will draw closer to you. Allow Him to fill your heart full of His love. I cannot describe the happiness that is possible, even when facing life's most difficult challenges.

Draw close to God, and He will draw close to you.

I promise.

Don't believe me?

Try it for yourself!

Find the Courage to Continue!